Wednesday, April 2, 2008
last day of my ahma's wake .. was ton~in @ d wake til morn ..
haha .. den play 'bluff' wif my cousins thy all .. ve loads
of laughter lorz .. laugh til my stomach so pain .. wahaha ..
okok .. my ahma's was buried @ Chua Chu Kang Cemetery ..
haiz .. sob all d way frm d moment whr we AMEN 4 her ..
den close d coffin .. my dad sob .. sob til v jia lat eh ..
haiz .. i was controllin my tears v well de .. til i saw my aunt
& especially my dad sob .. i start 2 sob as well .. haiz ..
y lyk tiz .. i rili miss my ahma alot .. argh .. !!! hw i wish i
could hold her hand again .. play wif her finger .. den cal her &
ask her 2 wake up & say 'ba cu kuay' (open ur eyes in hokkien) ..
cox when she was in renci .. she wun open her eyes de ..
hmmm .. den she ll smile smile when i cal her .. though i noe
she dun rmb who m i .. MAH MAH .. !!!! CAN U HEAR ME .. !!!
I MISS U .. !!! heard frm d pastor tt .. those who r christian ..
when a human is dead .. thy r nt dead .. thy r jux slpin ..
thy jux temporary left us .. cox we ll meet d dead human
in heaven 1 day .. den d pastor oso ask us 2 lk carefully @
d face cox when human left d world & proceed 2 d heaven ..
we dun rili lk alike as d tym when we r in d world .. hmmm ..
my frenz out thr .. u uds wad i min mah .. ? hahah ..
cox xuann was oso lyk abit confused of wad i tryin 2 say ..
okok .. nvm .. dun tok abt it le k .. ? cox i dun rili lyk christian
cox no matter wad thy do .. thy ll keep sayin AMEN /
A LI LU YA .. okok .. i dunno la .. nt tt i hate christian ..
jux tt dun lyk thy keep sayin AMEN & A LI LU YA .. ok .. ?
hmmm .. was @ CCK cementary .. when was ready 2 buried
d coffin .. we throw flowers dwn .. den my father was kneein
dwn .. sobbin terribly .. haiz .. heartache though he treat me nt
tt gd eh .. cox aft all .. he is my father .. he was a gd father
when he is gd .. bt he is monster when he is bad .. haha ..
did i say smth wrong mah .. ? im confuse of wad i sayin ..
sobbin day 2day .. AHMA AHMA AHMA .. u noe .. due 2 d
chinese tradition .. we believe tt d soul ll come back on d 7th day ..
& i rili hope tt my ahma ll come back .. i rili wanna c u .. mayb i ll give
u a big hug eh .. nvm .. even if i cannot c u .. can u pls let me feel
tt u r ard .. ? or let me dream of u .. ? pls .. tink i gt alot of
thing i wanna tel u .. & i love u eh .. !!! i nv say tt b4 2 u ..
haiz .. human always shi qu le cai hui dong de zhen xi ..
nw i rili rili rili rili uds le ..
aft CCK .. went back 2 d wake thr .. den ve our lunch .. b4
havin lunch .. my dad tel me & my sis alot of my ahma thing ..
haiz .. den sob again .. seein my dad sobbin .. i oso dunno
wad 2 do .. rili .. mind blank .. cox i dunno hw 2 console
human de .. wanna cry den cry eh .. u ll feel beta .. i wun
ask u 2 stop cryin lyk my other relative do .. haiz .. aft lunch ..
d most impt thing is 2 settle all d funeral thing lyk
expenses etc .. lolz .. abt $$$ again .. woo .. !!! predicted tt
my realtive ll quarrel de lorz .. haix .. thy rili did quarrel eh ..
rili dun uds eh .. 5days of wake .. 5 of d days oso quarrel ..
WTF d ADULTS is tinkin sia .. !!!
ok .. tink i dun blog too long le .. ltr some human complaint again ..
stop here .. continue miss my ahma ..
my dear my dear bao bei .. whr r u .. ? i was damn upset jux nw .. i nd some1 2 b by my side ..
& tt some1 is u .. bt whr r u .. ? haiz .. i rili miss u loads k .. ? nw u on holi ..
y cant u come find me .. ? haiz .. dun tel me tt u r lazy k .. ? lazy ll hai u loads of things de ..
♥ me, sherron6:38 PM
